first post

For the past week I've been debating whether or not I should start a new blog again. I'm sure you all know but I lost my only son about a month and a half ago to a rare malformation (AVM) in the brain. It seems to be getting harder for me. I didn't sleep until 6:30am last night and woke up at 11. My whole life revolved around my son and now that he's gone..I feel so empty. I've been trying to keep myself busy with school but lately it's been so hard to concentrate. I have two girls who sit in the same table for lab and they always talk about their sons..yet they have no idea that I've just recently lost mine. I miss Nathan so much..if only I could hold him even for just 30 seconds it would mean so much to me.